Charlee is in first grade. Her favorite color is purple. She wants to be a doctor when she grows up and a mom but she’s going to adopt a child (one child because more than that are too many) so that she doesn’t have to be pregnant.
Andlee is also in first grade. Her favorite color is pink. She wants to be a ballerina or a veterinarian when she grows up. She also wants to be a mom and have a bunch of babies.
Hudson is in kindergarten. His favorite color is blue. He wants to be a bull rider and a daddy when he grows up!
My bigs started school today and there were NO TEARS shed by ANY of us. They were so big and brave. Andlee has been extremely scared about going back to school. She struggles greatly with insecurity and was bullied a lot last year for her size. She hates school because of that. It’s a very touchy subject. Brian and i do everything that we can to help her. We work very hard to build her up and remind her how perfect she is. We work with her nutritionist and endocrinologist to address her thyroid issues. Andlee has an irregular thyroid but she also has a hormone imbalance. She has had it since birth. She doesn’t make enough of the hormone that tells your brain that you’re full so her brain believes that she is always hungry. She’s never satisfied. The treatment for that is enforcing portion control and not allowing her to eat at unscheduled times. We have school staff looking out for her and helping encourage her. It is hands down the hardest thing that I’ve battled as a mom. You think that you are enough to help your baby. You think that you can control every situation and how they see themselves. You think that you can make everything all better for them. But you can’t. This is my first time realizing that. There are no words to describe how hard this is for us and how helpless we feel. She told me 3 days ago that she thinks that everyone else in the world is beautiful except for her. You don’t know heart ache until you’ve watched your 6 year old bawl and say those words to you. I can’t handle it. I have to stop there and i will simply ask for you to send prayers or positive vibes to Andlee. If you’re local and see her in the halls, shoot her a kind word. It’ll make her day. She did good this morning, thankfully. She didn’t cry and her morning was not stressful like her last few weeks leading up to school have been. We have tried to over compensate and exaggerate how amazing school will be this year and how much she will love it. We made the kids teachers and my mom little gifts which were fun. This year is my mom’s first year teaching. She’s teaching 7th grade history so the kids didn’t want to leave her out in making the gifts. It was sweet of them. I’m very anxious to hear how their first days went. I’ve already text each of their teachers and checked in on them... twice ha!
I hope that all of your little ones have a wonderful time back to school and that you’re handling it well.
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